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HOW DO YOU COPE” 

This is the question for today ,…..  

I am asked this daily too many times too count….. The answer is normal answer is …. I just don’t let it spoil my day.

I have a pain threshold that is way above normal parameters,” I have in the past walked 2+ miles with the full effects of Memgicocal meningitis” then a further 20 yards to the medical center explained what was wrong and what allergies I had before hitting the floor. On contact with the carpet my muscles relaxed and my whole body shakes. So I can cope with high levels of pain…. And if I say it’s sore or hurts it actually is very serious stages. After 40 years I have learned too manage and understand this very well.

My sence of humour is warped,fast and contagious, and my thought process is pro active not depressive. There is always a happy glow and smile on my face (even if the worst has happened or the day is really bad). Then I was blessed with strong broad shoulders that carry any hardship with ease. Personal drive too succeed and achieve,early bird catches the worm mentality. Strong heart that powers my frame ,educated , alert and active mind. Positive and realistic outlook on life and well lit path before me. 

It’s not an easy thing to pull off at all , fortunately I was born of hard stuff from strong natured DNA stock. But I have also had to graft and work hard on the combinations of this package. “Coping with bullies,insults,discrimination,pre conceptions,un educated,disrespect and generally scared people.” Still too this day people still try and dispose thier opinion on my look and intelligence.

I just walk away most of the time,but have put people in thier place verbally and realistically leaving them diminished and ashamed. Now being 6ft4 really helps and in the word of Billy Connely (I look more like a mugger than a mug E ). All achieved by time,work,polishing and most of all pride. 

Society is generally nosey and inquisitive,but also ashamedly un educated and ignorant. Inclusion is not part of life thanks too generation’s of installed prejudice and hate . Whether it’s colour,race,religion,disability,orientation or look these have been established over decade and melenia. It is the job of present generation’s to kick start the re education of the future too accept and understand.

Now I know that the above doesn’t resemble everyone but it is a large majority of society. I know a large section of people that are not tarnished by this. And accept ,ask and learn, we all come from the same cloth.  I don’t care for the above  indiscretion at all personality,brains and humour matter far more.

Your own inner strength is your beauty and determination drives you and inspires others to follow. 

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Letters all
Combine to make word
Strings of words equate too sentence
Placement of sentence
Collectively form a paragraph

Flowing from the pen
Like blood from a wound
Spewing onto the once blank page
Story formulated from imagination
Stanza’s form charactors grow
Lives and events unfold
Journey takes us
Imaginatively onwards
Thrust head long
Emersed in the whole

Scribbles and etchings
Formulations combine
Proof reading of ideals
Printing at press
Editorial interludes
Conformed and binded
Book and spines rigidity
Author at last
Published for public honour

Signings and views
Shelve upon shelve
Book sellers and agents
Country wide
Pervayor of literature
Standing a gop
First faze and intersection
Flies out the door
My words are accepted
By the learned and wise

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I am a warrior my mask is embellished by scars and marks . No finery or jewels for people to admire. But my l8fe scars are jewel enough for me. Happy within my own skin and with my personality and abilities. Free from the negativity of societies flaws. There are many out there that are the same. Unfortunately they do not see themselves as warriors or champions. All because of the societies fear and lack of compassion towards many.
   I have had 59 maxi facial operations,2 bouts of viral meningitis,2 bouts of bacterial meningitis, broken my jaw in 27 places and shattered my knee caps. Lived through years of name calling,physical and mental abuse, been told I don’t deserve or can’t do. From many differing areas strangers,friends and parents. Still to this day I am looked at as lower class and worthless by many. Why do I write this I can see and here people ask ? , because I am strong and individual I do not nor ever have saught Pitty or sympathies from anywhere.
   Fighting is part of me from day too day life too education and civilization. Whether it’s idiotic name calling or physical bullying I take it in my stride. Forty years of experience and tweeking of my mechanisms and attitude. By god its not easy how do you break free of decades off disimilation and ignorance. In bread into the either of societies Dna.
  

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Acceptance of self is the most important thing I have found.Being able to learn about your own condition, disability or difference.And using the + and – to your advantage in equal measure. Always take the time to turn negative to a positive the best you can.Propelling your confidance forward and upwards pushing yourself above the murky and dismal cloud that others try too shroud you in.
   Refusal to conform to the whims of the masses and taking control. Finding people that boost you and support for no gain other than for austerity and progressiveness. Growing thick mailable armour and lightning wit and intelligence also help.
   Once self worth and a clear pathway can be seen by self you will launch and grow despite yourself and others. I am proof and try to show others leading by example. I am no sheep quiet of acceptance I am a leader and guider to show how it can be done and which directions can be taken.
   I have been diagnosed with Ptsd thanks to the traumas of my past life and fybromyralga due to nerve damage and trauma through my body.
Now that sounds bad huh !!!, just wait I have played international sports,served my country for 10+ years,qualified as a nurse,started youth clubs and teams, qualified as a personal trainer. Traveled three quarters of the world and have 4 wonderful kids and moved to a wonderful part of Britain and everyone is loving it.
  This is not a story of woe but I hope that it helps spur people to achieve and progress. The idiots still exist but they are below us we are individual warriors all. We deserve our scars and marks to show we have endured and survived. Our differences spread colour and brightness guiding others and motivating them and ourselves take pride always