Posts Tagged ‘mental’

Head held high
Eyes looking forward
Striding through life
Clearing all hurdles
Breaking down walls
Battling foes
Bannishing darkness where ever it grows
The guiding light and warrior brave
The meek and mild servant
Who journey along
This is not bravery
Only the fight
That burns deep inside me
Producing the power of right
Through Turmoils and pains
Growing ever stronger
Live in the shadows no way any longer
These choices are hard
But critical to all for we are survivors
That battle away
For fairer and brighter days for all

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Thoughtless it seems
Disenchanted with life
Negative balance on thoughts saved
Hollow and void of mechanics
The case sullen gray and lifeless
Opake windows misty and vague
Form limp lays slumped in place

They know not the battles
No one sees the waring factions
Dark mirky mists cloud all around
Outsiders laugh and point
Tattling about thier opinions
Louder and louder
Spreading thier bile and septic thoughts
No one stops to think
Nor reassurances hand laid down
Where is the conform and splice

Reality and passions
Tumble and roll
Punch after punch thrown
Screams and moans the only sound
Never heard or seen
Scars internal mount up
External preasures build
Family,tasks,work and self
Plummet by the wayside
Blame firmly placed on self

Where is the solitude
The freedom of civility
And joy of normalities pleasure
Who stole our smile
The light from our eyes
And hope from our dreams
The sun does it shine
Has the world been thrown into darkness
Or is it just me
Pass me the light
Send the lifeline of peace
No longer can we select the path
Choice has fled our sanity

We the warriors
Don’t fear the dark
But strive Dailly for light and peace
The civilised routes and pleasures
So no one has to suffer our pain alone
Support and comfort
Are our swords gilten edges
Our armour is our safety zone
We ware it with pride
Because of necessity and preservation
The wars victory will be ours
No matter the time or sacrafices

In the depths of dispare
I dwell in its squaller
Sullen and grey
Passified by pain and torture
Medicated too oblivion
Family and friends
Cast thier gaze over my living shell
Masked smile animamatronic nod of head
Robotic steps one after the other
Dipressive and fearful
I huddle in my tight ball
No enemy or friend can break through
How is this deamed survival
A note or tune
Strikes a match within
Fires egnite burning slow
Higher and higher there energies rise
Colour Emblazen my flesh
Emotion returns to my motion
Stick in hand I stride
Head held high I fight
Concealment no longer my domain
Exterior function returns
The look of amazement and wonder
Clearly Visable on all the faces
Surrounding me
Pitty falls from grace exchanged for pride
This inner light continues to burn
Fed by heart,friendship and determination
I am the light the mobilizations
The fight is continual
Victories many as the war is faught
The guiding light consumes

The contempt you wield
For my existence
My loyalty too my life
The ability too strip me of dignity
My empowered soul screams
The assistance never arrives
Silent screaming of sinues
The howls from a troubled mind
You smirk at my attempts
To conform to the expected
Normalities guise is tattered
Damb you disfunction
Your mental physicality
Putrifies souls dragging them down
But I will not lie down
I will never cease to strive
I am a lion
The true warrior
Countermanding your orders
Is my right
This will defile your attempts
Throw asunder your reign
And allow me and my fellow sufferers
To live life too the full
And rise high out of your enforced mire pit
To emblazened highs never thought possible
We will win I will lead the contingents
I have and will forever
Dispell and devour your bile
So others do not have too
You may take our bodies and minds
But our freedoms are our own
To shine and make aware our brilliance

I never wondered where I would be,walking the routes laid for me.
Soaking up the information torrented and imported too my mental store.
Scribbling and noting the starred icons of gold
Tested by self and civilities quests learning too walk and examinations at school
I grow day by day despite of it all taller, wiser and stronger than most.

With contorted features and boggly eye
I stride towards the future with sparkle in my eye
Taking on challenges in every stride
Man made or natural they fall by the side
From strength too strength I charge at light speed
Not dragging my feet with depressive need

With surgeon’s knife and medical aide
My contorted expressions change on my face
Battered and bruised inside and out
I clatter on regardless free of doubt
Knocking me down with your verbilisations or physical charge
Enpowers my nature leading the charge

Through the halls of education and employment i advance
Striking at chances with two strong hands
From home town too deserts I have traveled with joy
Been stacking shelves and throwing bombs
I have love for this planet and the people within
Because of my personality and power within

Too all who have wavered and set road blocks for me
Thanks for the challanges and tasks set by thee
They strengthen my resolve Enpowers my will
They keep me above you with my comfort and skill
I come out at the end complete and bitter free
What have your choices left deep for thee

In reflections repost I praise and idolise
The poor fearful society that tried to repress me
They failed in thier tasks enbittered thier hearts
And most of all lost thier god given right
Bullies and tormentors never do win
If with belief in your self and strong mind,will and heart.

To all in the world down trodden and scared
Stand strong for your future and belief there in
Follow your path cut new routes of your own
Listen and learn avoiding the falls
Thiers only one thing that matters in your own worldly place
Doing your best with love,passion and grace

You told them lies
I cried myself too sleep
I smiled every morning
Hiding fear so deep
I raised the bar every day
Ran the gauntlet
Fought all in my way
Took the hits from those unseen
Placed them in boxes
Never too be seen
Took strides to rise
High out of this putrid mirk
Sense of humour cheeky smirk
With fists of steel
Quick wits and fast thought
Days grew quicker
And tormentors turned
You still doubted my strengths
Putting me down
Lying to those aged above
Spreading your lies
And fairytale spin
This inperfect person
Born under your skin
Driven too acheive despite of it all
Praying that parents would stop the free fall
Years flew past and incidents cause
Blame was clearly laid at the wrong door
Your perfection mard
By your own stuborn ways
And the glaring imperfections
In the things you did say
Glass shattered around you
From that day too this
Constant reminders of dual standard bliss
Stronger than you in every way
Wiser and smarter I grew day by day
As a parent strong and respected be
Be proud of the fact I am me and not thee
Loving all children the same as the first
In thier own perfections
No matter thier cases
Unfaltering assistance
Without condition is Dailly at play

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Day dawns fresh and clear
Clouds dance in air light and free
New ideas germinate
Drawing strength from nutrients
Hidden deep beneath the earth
Taking shape and reaching up
Driven by hunger
Full of desire
Flung into action by you and I
First steps of many
One after the other
Striking down paths invisibly set
These are the wishes and hopes of fate
Waiting patiently at the gates
Grasp them strong and hold them tight
Lets combine lives and take golden flight

After an interesting chat with a psychologist friend  of mines. Discussing levers and actions and implementations of the idea.
He is now off to look into a possible application in phycology of the fundamentals ie, force,effort and fulcrum. And the two of us may just come up with an interesting paper on the possibilities and treatment streams.

For example the mental condition,the triggers and treatment/counseling required.

The patient,triggers and treatment/counseling

The patient,triggers and coping mechanics

This too has aspects that directly link to health and wellbeing,fitness and social skills.

Opening up better avenues too work,personal/inter personal interactions,health and wellbeing,social perceptions,achievement and goal setting and many more benefits and improvement steams for general life and living.

Also coping with situations,triggers,actions,outcomes,personalities,conflicts and dimensions and parameters.

So if It could be simplified into three basis load (mental or physical)
Effort (treatment,triggers,problems,situations,weight (mental or physical)
Fulcrum (patient,lever,contact point,central area,contention)

The concept is mind-blowing only a 4 hour chat or so has opened up a concept of wonderous possibility.
As a father of an Autistic child and someone who has both worked and lived with varied mental conditions. I can personally see where this could be employed or introduced into the care provision and teaching for target groups.

This is something to contemplate even for people without physiological issues.
For day to day problems ect and personal goals and target setting.

I am away to type up the report from the meeting and start proper research and investigate possible avenues and uses.
Any input would be greatly appreciated and watch this space .

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I have suffered from nerve and muscular pain from am early age. Dibilitating at times stopping me from joining in with PE at school and other fun stuff.
  I was told by medical professionals to just do light exercise ie swimming,cycling and walking. And to take my meds along with a healthy diet.
  Until I met a physio therapist called John,who showed me the importance of flexibility, range of motion and strength in muscle tone. And the truth behind the benefits for my condition 8f exercise and development.
So carefully and gently I introduced running,climbing and bodyweight exercise. Playing football with my mates and learning gymnastics and dance. Before I knew it I was able to run long or short distance,flexibility was a lot better and my range of motion was excellent compared to previous.
  Now I was lucky I found the right advice at an early age. And was able to nurture my progression and pain at the same time.
  Through exercise and diet my bodies production of its natural chemicals which assist immune system,energy production,nerve and brain development and other chemical reactions that occur within our bodies systems. Was greatly improved and because of this pain management,calorie/fat conversion and many more processes were significantly better .
  The external support of physio , coaching,medical and many more. Assisted the education development, withdrawl of meds and introduction of appropriate others,increase in dietary knowledge and all aspects of life.
    Allowing me to take up sports and other activities as a teenager too joining the armed forces and becoming a qualified nurse.
  I am now 40 years old and was diagnosed with Fybromyralga at the age of 28. Finally I had understanding of my nerve and pain condition. Unfortunately the medical professional I dealt with at the time set me on the roller coaster of tests and more tests. Higher amounts of meds and more pain and discomfort,lathergy,  dipression,anger,dispare,lower drive and many more. And was informed after 5 years nothing would me done until I ended up in hospital or a wheel chair. I had went from 12 stone too over 20, suffered from continual pain/discomfort,had an asthmatic condition and was not in a good frame of m8nd or mental place.
At that point I decided to get bk on my bike literally and start swimming. Sorted my diet out,stopped smoking,comfort eating and started living. Self motivation returned and looking at my kids as they grew up my drive and determination increased.  The more weight I lost the healthier I felt the more varied exercise I took part in .
  The variety of tasks I could perform increased and within 24 months I had plumited down to under 18 stone. Lost 6 inches around my waist and  qualified as a personal trainer (fitness). And even though I am still in 24/7 pain and constant discomfort I have used my experience and knowledge to transform the mental and physical knowledge and  appierance of many clients,friends and family.
   No matter your disability or condition performing as much exercise as possible with the right informed assistance and correct diet. Supported by the right nutritional and medical advice and plans. There is no reason why better health is not achievable for all.
  It will take time, stacks of patience,support, tough love and determination.So the individual can achieve short or long term goals but I can truelly say in the long term it is deffinatly worth it.

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Hey Ugly is the cry
Four eyed Freak they laugh
Hey You Guys” the film referance
Here’s the punch ,the kick aggression shows
Pushed from piller to post and carpet rolled
Differance is the fear if the normal
Propelled by ignorance and blindness
Here I find that place safe
Solitary seat of calm
Deep in my head controled
Body numb as strike after strike falls
Red mist gathers thick
Muscles twitch and fists clentch
But safe here alone mental calm
Controlless of actions
Targets aquired as silent assasin glares
Dark opake windows emotiveless
Control given in my place
Release the assasin or stay at peace

The tormented beast once calm
   Has the instinct of hunter, protector
Negates control whe necessity calls
Clears ground and targets abound
From sanities safety numb but clear
  Striking out through fear and anger
Trembling and swetting pure terrors wine