Posts Tagged ‘feelings’

Days feel like minutes,hours like seconds

Misty minded darkness covers all

The smile and fassade weaken 

Tiredness consumes energy faster daily

Those close seem too patronize instead of comfort

Daily tools lag and drag me down

Breathing is a chore simplicity eludes me

Inner strengths hide chortling gayley 

It’s raining outside nature crys too

Hiding the tracks of my own tears

Trying to comfort me in it’s own sadness

Why doesn’t anyone know what too do

Where has the real me gone

Alone in my busy household I sit

Screaming in silence struggling to hold back fear and pain

The light is further away down this never ending tunnel

Train has stalled to far from either end

No energy to stride it out

Once coveted solitude is now my prison

Dark ,dimming existence of the disheveled 

Battle of minds existence.. ……. thoughts

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Twisted lying still

Innards shift and tumble

Crimson red rises

Spewing like molten lava flows

Exuding weakness and frailty

Tears fall to the ground

Like glass beads scattered below

 emotions lost and bewildered 

Mentally destroyed scarred forever

One individual against life

Can it rise and develope once more

With nurturing and tending

It’s soul will be reborn 

Like a planet scorched by flames

It regenerates in time and flourishes again

Seeds hidden frailties gone

That strength renewed better than before

Stronger, taller with lessons learned

Take on all demons and hater to bare

Staring at the looking Glass

The figure dim looks back

The sullen look features  drooped

No sparkle in the eyes

Sagging skin and contorted format

Changes beyond belief

That sparkle gone and spark put out

No sign of life within

Its astounding how it’s all locked down

And hidden from plain sight

Grasping and fighting to get it back

A battle fought on an hourly round

That smile under pinned and replaced by frowns

The mask adorned as I step out the door

A sterling job is done

For those I see don’t find the real me

As they smile and joke along

Oh how I miss that tender me

Hidden deep inside

I know my strength and personable hew

Will return with a flash and bang

But the waiting kills a part of me 

With every second that pass

The sympathy of others just seems 

Too pound in another nail 

Oh how demoralising can it be 

To see that coffin built

No I am not physically dying

Just the fire inside

So don’t morn or cry for me

Look for the heart inside

Trundling across the tracks,clickity clack

Destination end of the line

Wind howls rain batters down

The sea is wild throwing the Forth asunder

Crashing and cascading through the mighty girders

White horses batter the line

The journey ends at the ferry

Delay till calm returns once more

The chill shatters the core of all

Soaked too the core complete

Dreak and damp sullen gray

The matted form of everything

No sunlight or rays of hope 

Huddled safe on this dipressive state

Awaiting the releif that light does bring

The journey of life is a stormy afair

Joy of sun

Posted: June 7, 2016 in Random
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We worship your purity
Bask in your glow
Nature thrives under your watch
Colours brighter and darkness wains
The earth and sky abundant and fresh
The waters becon with cooling joy
It’s fantastic the adulation and joy you spread
Just by being thier alone and uncloaks
Lying in your cotton candy silken bed
Vivid blue clear and true
Once more we grass the summery vibe
And dance along our Dailly path
Enriched and alive as one with nature
Oh solar flares of excitement
How the world consumes your firey pleasure
The Sun and light to provide we thank you

Eyes meet
Glances exchanged
The hearts rhythm quickens
Clammy handed
Dry mouthed
Mind races
Face reddens crimson
Pulse races
Heart beats out of chest
Are you the one
My true love always
We stutter chat
Exchange details
Both wonder if we will meet again
Roses purchased
Card written and sealed
Friendship bands and time for meal
Table for two
In the romantic spot
Marked subtly with love heart notes
Will you be my valentine
Love of my life till the end of time
My heart is yours
Completely and true

In the depths of dispare
I dwell in its squaller
Sullen and grey
Passified by pain and torture
Medicated too oblivion
Family and friends
Cast thier gaze over my living shell
Masked smile animamatronic nod of head
Robotic steps one after the other
Dipressive and fearful
I huddle in my tight ball
No enemy or friend can break through
How is this deamed survival
A note or tune
Strikes a match within
Fires egnite burning slow
Higher and higher there energies rise
Colour Emblazen my flesh
Emotion returns to my motion
Stick in hand I stride
Head held high I fight
Concealment no longer my domain
Exterior function returns
The look of amazement and wonder
Clearly Visable on all the faces
Surrounding me
Pitty falls from grace exchanged for pride
This inner light continues to burn
Fed by heart,friendship and determination
I am the light the mobilizations
The fight is continual
Victories many as the war is faught
The guiding light consumes

Genetically resembling a number
Inferiorities bound
Holding mentality hostage
Confusion reigns supreme
Visually you resemble your years
Inwardly you continually battle
Disfunction of miss represented truth
Contortion of genetisisms
Growth stifled and slow
Education jigsaw like
Inferior imperfections shine
Believe in yourself
Fight at the forefront
Medicated slowness
Contemptual abrassions
Societies lackluster grasp of reality
Break the mold and rise
Mind of the lost
Who is to judge you
Self worths perpetual motion

Scribbled on a page
Left to wilt with age
Filled with meanings
Heartfelt and true
Things Un said from me too you
The meaning of life
The purpose off strife
The keys to longevities joy
A story of truth
Secrets untold
Mysteries torn in two
I leave you these pages
As a guided instruction
An insight too the depths
Of my mindset and heart
Truelly opened too you from the start
I go in peace with joy and a smile
That I have taken my part
And carried with style
This world is yours
To traverse and enjoy
Take me with you deep in your heart
With eternal love I say good bye

Too
My child

My sweetheart  I Love you
Lying here wind tussling my hair
Mud caked deep on my torso
With all my heart I smile
Your sweet perfume
Gentle touch and silken flesh
Calm my panicked sole
I feel no pain
As cold grasp’s firm
And my body dulls
Life freely seeping from me
You are my everything
And my reason too be
Unfortunately my duty
Has cut our adventure short
Carry on living now I am gone
Safe in the knowledge
I will always keep you safe
A watchful eye from above
Farewell and goodbye
Until  we meet again
In pastures new for life evermore