Posts Tagged ‘fears’

Days feel like minutes,hours like seconds

Misty minded darkness covers all

The smile and fassade weaken 

Tiredness consumes energy faster daily

Those close seem too patronize instead of comfort

Daily tools lag and drag me down

Breathing is a chore simplicity eludes me

Inner strengths hide chortling gayley 

It’s raining outside nature crys too

Hiding the tracks of my own tears

Trying to comfort me in it’s own sadness

Why doesn’t anyone know what too do

Where has the real me gone

Alone in my busy household I sit

Screaming in silence struggling to hold back fear and pain

The light is further away down this never ending tunnel

Train has stalled to far from either end

No energy to stride it out

Once coveted solitude is now my prison

Dark ,dimming existence of the disheveled 

Battle of minds existence.. ……. thoughts

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I am sixfoot four
Strong and bold
Heart of a lion eyes of the hawk
Meek as a mouse farce as a tiger
Doctor,nurse and master provider
I have lived through pain
Visable and hidden
Been bullied,beaten and down trodden
Fought toe too toe taken out the trash
Stood in rank and saluted fast
Worked my fingers to the bone
Day after day
Kept a roof over my head
Meals every day
Walked every step in tattered shoes
Turned my back on troubled souls
Bullies and idiot bold
Plowed a furrow of my own
With true friends and heart bold
Pride filled steps
Songs in my heart
The approachable man
Gentle and kind to all around
Struggles and stresses haunt me so
From stife’s of the past
Stresses untold

I am a writer
Poet of sorts
From motion to word
I lay them down
From prose on my page
To poses of strength
I coach and spell oh so lyrical
A pen in my pocket
Stopwatch in hand
Clients and stories
Popularly rise
With offspring of beauty
Intelligence and fun
The world is thier oyster
Learning is fun
Tough and fair
I lead by example
They will take a direction
True to their heart
There future is theirs
Too command and desire
My strife I will evade
The pressures deflect
To my upmost and parental best
They are my mirror
The key to the world
Inside they drive me
Keep me alive

My partner in life
Is true as can be
Her demons dance perfectly
In time with mines here
Since first day to this
Through thick and thin
No matter what troubles
There might have been
I write to inspire
To clear up my head
From Haiku too epic’s
They flow from my pen
No matter the reason
The feelings evoked
Writtings a pleasure
Of words never spoken
Friendships are built
And never broken
Through media streams
Human nature and pen
Amazing relationship are a great thing
I thank it all
Everyone true
Old friend and new at home or abroad
Even the tormentors and bullies around

This is why I pen
Writing in words
No Oritory stumbles
Or tears on the ground

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One strike leads to another
verbalization  condemns
Putrid assimilation
Glee filled aggressions
Knowledge less spewing
Societies grasp less reality
Shunning the miss read
Pushing down the afflicted
Shameless blunders
One after the other
Socially accepted by many
Dim witted individualised
segregation impune
The victimized defensive roll
Lay your attacks hard
Strike after strike
The shell is hardened by each
The mask holds firm
Shunning your advances
Deflecting your profanities
We rise through time to highs
Far above your narrow perceptions
Soles of fire and strength
Built to endure and rise free

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The wonders of Blogging are amazing so many new friends and like-minded people. Some of us only speak through our blogs other I have had the great fortune to talk too by Skype or phone. There are a few whom I have spent physical time with which was and is awesome. Considering the stretch of the planet we all cover.
My poetry and writing have improved and I really enjoy the whole process. From a trigger to conception of the peace and publishing . Those that know me well will tell you I am a confidant person that is personable and helpful.
So here it is It was suggested that I put my poems in publication which stunned the socks off me. Then today I was asked if I would ever put my story on to paper and publish it so that others may benefit from my abilities and see how things can be turned round.
For this hard-working Scotsman father,husband,trainer,carer,friend,writer,reader,socialite,inspirer and liver of life. It is the most daunting thing ever, how do you choose what pieces too use ?, how do you start putting this information down, would people read it?,what do people want?, who would be offended?,can I do this?, how do I find publishers? And How do I start ? !!!.
I sought advice from a few friends and they all said go for it !!! And I am still struggling to pick,put down and collate.
This publication  will get their and it will be as good as it can be.
Don’t let anything put you off step up be counted and give it 100%.

I will need assistance and prompting from time to time and ideas on the poetry too use would be awesome !!

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The light shatters the dark
The faint voices
Distant permeation of the silence
Clambering and stretching
pugilistic attempts
To clear the path ahead
Happiness defiant
Depressiveness dwelling strong
Battle after battle
The voices reach
Slowly increasing volume
Closer to the light
We scramble slow
Pushing and pulling
Our mental state free
From the weight of past
Towards the free range of futures glow

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In common place
I wonder free
Looking normal as can be
Fully of joy
Intelligence bound
Not a flaw to be found
Then the monster wakes
And the mind does shake
Turmoil and pain
Of past indiscretions play
Vivid and clear
Only I can see
Re living every motion
Feelings flood and heart does race
Until true love does quench its need
Returning eventually
To civilities normalities vein

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Locked deep
Verberating turmoil
Deep darkness falls
Sleep empailed
Sub conscious scatters
Mind races
Tops turvy sediment
Embroiled hopes and dreams
Scattered in tatters
No quarter spared
Solace of daylights gaze
Lost in time and space
Pain and agony relived
Seconds,minutes and hours
Merge and blur