Posts Tagged ‘Fear’

Twisted lying still

Innards shift and tumble

Crimson red rises

Spewing like molten lava flows

Exuding weakness and frailty

Tears fall to the ground

Like glass beads scattered below

 emotions lost and bewildered 

Mentally destroyed scarred forever

One individual against life

Can it rise and develope once more

With nurturing and tending

It’s soul will be reborn 

Like a planet scorched by flames

It regenerates in time and flourishes again

Seeds hidden frailties gone

That strength renewed better than before

Stronger, taller with lessons learned

Take on all demons and hater to bare

Haze

Posted: August 5, 2016 in Random
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Pewring through the murk

Shady figures and outlines

Befall my receptors

Clouding judgement and thought

Simplistic tasks become arduous 

Mind seem like hours 

Hours likened to days

Nerves shot senses scrambled

As the shifting plates 

Of skeletal bone

Slide and shift

I feel and see the haze 

Continual and ensnared

Oh where is the light

Bright glacial eyes

Broad eluminating smile

A radiance of confidant beauty

Kidnapped by hatred and stupidity

Shrouded in matt black hood

Hidden from view kept from all

Beaten and abuses by social eneptness

Locked away without light

Starved of social sustenance 

The will of life draining from the soul

Thinking and gaunt flesh

Hangs from inside the hood

Skeletal for touches the floor

Bright light floods 

Eyes smart body recoils

Shaking with fear body convulses 

Rescued by the samaratans code

Tended by angels fed by God’s

Brought back to life slowly

Fearful of every noise,movement and silence

Sceptical of societies intent

Physical improvements slowly grasp

Mentality scattered and split

Not in a forgien place

My neibourghood were I grew up

The victim of the bully culture

Sufering like all hostages

No armed response or protective custody

Just my room and the solice within

For my differences I am shunned

When will it change

Acceptance for all

The Change

Will it ever come

When you peal my skin
Revealing the surface below
Impurity and devistation
Blood crimson red
It will not define me
Or defeat the power within
It will just compound
The truth and heart there in
Fix it up and stich it tight
And put me back to bed
I will awake with a smile on my face
And the confidance will shine

Those haters and doubters
Through my life
And people who can not be
Will gape in awe of what’s set a fore
And languish where they sit
To keep up with me or be your best
You have too put you self behind
Pick up my leed and fall in line
Do what must be done
Not needing to be asked or told by some
Intinctivly just move
For at your ages it is unheard
To be instructed in simple life

So stop you paranoid acts
And lazy task
Of others doing your job
Everyone sees you lack and luster
And bow thier heads in shame
It’s not for us to lift you up
Or prod you to awaken
But for you alone to get off your ass
And stand to be accepted
No excuse or story bold
Will be accepted any longer
Pick up thy shovel and dig with the rest
On the coal face that is life
Do not question or meline
The reasons for the silence
For people will only explain themselves
So many time before the fall silent
This is why you must take note
Of the reasons behind them

Head held high
Eyes looking forward
Striding through life
Clearing all hurdles
Breaking down walls
Battling foes
Bannishing darkness where ever it grows
The guiding light and warrior brave
The meek and mild servant
Who journey along
This is not bravery
Only the fight
That burns deep inside me
Producing the power of right
Through Turmoils and pains
Growing ever stronger
Live in the shadows no way any longer
These choices are hard
But critical to all for we are survivors
That battle away
For fairer and brighter days for all

I dread failing
I strive to be the best I can
I fear you make the mistakes I did
I teach you right from wrong
Learned through the year
By being strong enough too take the chances
I lead by example
Scattering crumbs for you too follow
Neon and bright heavy enough to stay put
I fear you are blind too my help
I cringe to think I am not good enough
I take the blame for all indiscretions
Because the ones that should are not strong enough
I fear nothing that happens to me or is brought to my door
Looking into your eyes lost and searching
Answering every call at break neck speed
To save you everytime you fall
I am that punchbag for all your hate and pain
I fear you will fall and I can’t catch you
My only fear is leaving you Un prepared and naked
Too the devilishness of humanity
And not being thier to pull you through
Don’t live in my fear please fly free
Be the best you can be
Without me beside you grow fast learn hard
Never fear I will always love you and be thier for you

Yes I am alive
The mirky grey consumes
The crimson ache illuminates
Solitude in the throngs around
Indemnity against humanity
Fog mists the brain
Eyes sullen with crimson flashes
Deprived of sleep
Restless against the norm
Walking on glass no confirmation
Stomach twisted and tight
Hunched and screaming
Silent utterances aloud to the masses

These are my demons carried Dailly
Without notification
Others bewildered and annoyed
Forming stories and opinions
Never knowing the truth
Ideals conception less
Against my being
Understanding lacking from most
Those in the know assist
Allowing for visual conditions
But the mind is alone in the battle
Cloaked by medical evils
Numbed by the concoctions of drugs
Demons party in my frame
United against my existence
These are mine they ate me
But this warrior survives and exists
To the fullest of ability
Dumbfounding the so called experts

We the afflicted rise
Emblazen trails for others
Drawn weapons strength of mind
The battles won Dailly
During this autrition of war

Waters rise
As the heavens decend
Stormy gusts blowing trees down
Rivers spate bursting banks
Flooding roads,streets and parks
Blue lights flash responders attend
Lives on the line until calm assends
Mother nature reminds us all
How small and meak humanity is
Stay in doors safe and warm
Be sencible not to venture far
Green,amber and red alerts
Threat too life for all too heed
This is a storm to remind us all

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      Amongst the battles
      Of oppressions foes
      A thought for suffers left
      The brave at war
      Fighting hard in the name of peace
      Fleeing civilisation
      Condemned by rage
      Of those from within thier walls
      The truth denied by governance
      Spreading congecture through thier press
       With agendas hidden from the rest
       We the unaware can but gaze
        And pray for safe returns and battles end
       In the name of civilisations grace
       Every man to thier own
       In freedom and home
       With safety to live thier peace
    We are only humanity who
     Have imperfections and blemishes
    In clear view shown are aware
    Our differences many
    Impale and disapear
    In times of battles rage

I never wondered where I would be,walking the routes laid for me.
Soaking up the information torrented and imported too my mental store.
Scribbling and noting the starred icons of gold
Tested by self and civilities quests learning too walk and examinations at school
I grow day by day despite of it all taller, wiser and stronger than most.

With contorted features and boggly eye
I stride towards the future with sparkle in my eye
Taking on challenges in every stride
Man made or natural they fall by the side
From strength too strength I charge at light speed
Not dragging my feet with depressive need

With surgeon’s knife and medical aide
My contorted expressions change on my face
Battered and bruised inside and out
I clatter on regardless free of doubt
Knocking me down with your verbilisations or physical charge
Enpowers my nature leading the charge

Through the halls of education and employment i advance
Striking at chances with two strong hands
From home town too deserts I have traveled with joy
Been stacking shelves and throwing bombs
I have love for this planet and the people within
Because of my personality and power within

Too all who have wavered and set road blocks for me
Thanks for the challanges and tasks set by thee
They strengthen my resolve Enpowers my will
They keep me above you with my comfort and skill
I come out at the end complete and bitter free
What have your choices left deep for thee

In reflections repost I praise and idolise
The poor fearful society that tried to repress me
They failed in thier tasks enbittered thier hearts
And most of all lost thier god given right
Bullies and tormentors never do win
If with belief in your self and strong mind,will and heart.

To all in the world down trodden and scared
Stand strong for your future and belief there in
Follow your path cut new routes of your own
Listen and learn avoiding the falls
Thiers only one thing that matters in your own worldly place
Doing your best with love,passion and grace