Posts Tagged ‘awareness’

Many of my first blogs were about my life and struggles with bullies and miss conceptions. The processes and journeys made by myself and surgery awell as the determination to succeed.

This is an update if you like….. my operations from 35 years ago have decided to collapse.Yeah you have read right !!!, my face from forehead to jaw line has been built on a wire mesh (chicken wire) like stuff. And for reasons best known too others it has collapsed and twisted.

 My nose has dropped around 4 inches , eye socket has shifted and high cheek bone around socket flattened out. I now have a ridge in my palate on the roof of my mouth and the entire physiology of my skull has been affected. The shifting of the above has worsened my Fybro Myralga symptoms and created others as well.

I am presently under Maxi Facial clinic in Newcastle 9+ months and no further forward. No medical records have been obtained and it’s taken 8+ months for photos to be taken. The consultant in charge doesn’t seem to have a clue what too do. And is not following the NHS’s own process or procedures properly.

I am very aware that the type of surgery I have had and that I require is very specialised and dare I say it rare.But there are processes and procedures to be followed and we would be a lot further followed. I know this because I am a qualified nurse as well as 40 years experience of my condition and surgeries.

Because of this I am having to apply for a Personal independence Plan (pip) which is a government based benefit for disabilities. Now you can’t see the damage or symptoms mostly internal and physical . So some in aware specialist without appropriate will have to decide my fate.

I was a very popular and busy personal trainer but die to this issue a)It’s not safe to be lifting weights and taking classes (b) the symptoms are causing severe issues  (c) pain and discomfort as well as anxiety and distress. All of which put working,Walking and social activities on a back burner.

I write this not for sympathy but awareness for others, I know I will get there and be bk too 100% soon enough. But there are people out there that are not able too see past there difficulties as easily. Please please please stay strong and be yourself at all times. These things are sent too test us and not define us. I am a proud father of 4 , ex  Scots  Guard,Nurse,Coach and Personal trainer.I write poetry and stories , trying to inspire others along the way as well as bring my children up the best way possible. I am not my face or condition I just sometimes have too stop and take a rest then go again when able.

We the Warriors will win the battles wars are events to over come by adapting they can and will be conquered.

Advancing
From the valley
Enriched and alive
We stronger than ever arise
Greater than before
Ritchie because of darkness
Elevated to higher ground
Always looking and listening
Tantalising society
Manafesting or future
Envocing emotional ploys
Never decending back too darkness

Genetically resembling a number
Inferiorities bound
Holding mentality hostage
Confusion reigns supreme
Visually you resemble your years
Inwardly you continually battle
Disfunction of miss represented truth
Contortion of genetisisms
Growth stifled and slow
Education jigsaw like
Inferior imperfections shine
Believe in yourself
Fight at the forefront
Medicated slowness
Contemptual abrassions
Societies lackluster grasp of reality
Break the mold and rise
Mind of the lost
Who is to judge you
Self worths perpetual motion

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      Amongst the battles
      Of oppressions foes
      A thought for suffers left
      The brave at war
      Fighting hard in the name of peace
      Fleeing civilisation
      Condemned by rage
      Of those from within thier walls
      The truth denied by governance
      Spreading congecture through thier press
       With agendas hidden from the rest
       We the unaware can but gaze
        And pray for safe returns and battles end
       In the name of civilisations grace
       Every man to thier own
       In freedom and home
       With safety to live thier peace
    We are only humanity who
     Have imperfections and blemishes
    In clear view shown are aware
    Our differences many
    Impale and disapear
    In times of battles rage

Lying still and quiet
Consealed by nature
Targets on the move
Watching and learning
Notes taken weather judged
At one with my hole
Evasion mastered routes mapped
Numbers counted escape planned
Miniscule movements
Positions planned
Radio silence all is calm
Days and nights
Minutes and hours
Waiting silently for our time
Targets jotted
Ears are pricked
Hightend emotions coiled like spring
Control of breathing
Closing fast
Slow compression of metal
Process starts
Explosion of energy
Propulsion begins
Cutting through the air
With message of silence
Wispering wind
Target slumps in his place
Stillness is key
Detections a fail
Delivery of Wispering wind
Extraction point A
Motions are go
Slow and subtle
Careful as I go
No emotion or regret
Job is done
Taxi ordered on our way home
Nobody sees us
No sound is made
The procurement of death
Is our job lot

We The People

Posted: September 26, 2015 in Random
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We deserve to be heard
As indaviduals we rise
Seperating from the mass
Acheiving the best results
Becoming a unit
Working in unison
Delivering the outcomes laid afore us
But Seperating our indavidualism
Listen to us I aplore you
The conglomerates and bosses
As we the people
Make your jobs easier
Providing incomes and outcomes
Less fragile than hollow plans
The people matter
Whether paid,voluntary or as custom
No differential applies
The one is a part
The whole is an art
The Acheiving is democratic not dictated
We the people are all incompasing
And rule despite your rules

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      Societies asimilation
      Oritory of conceptions
      Media led instruction
      Governance with subliminality
      Brain washed with every sense
      Senses awash with miss    information
      Humanity void of indavidualism
      Sheep mentality grows
      Indaviduals shunned and melined
      Be yourself and rise
      Become the brightest light
      Wear the colours of change
      Become who you want too be
      Not a DROID of humanisation
      Be self with pride
      Expand your world beyond
      The conceptual boundaries
      Live your lives to the fullest
      Become your dreams and ambitions

     

Tare my sinues
Scratch my skin
Etch me black and blue
Burn my cortex
By slanderous bile
Push me to the floor
As you hover above
Stand well clear
As the flames do rise
This phoenix with fight in its eyes
Spreading my wing
Full with beauties suprise
Soaring above you
In clarity of sky
Free with my dreams
Outstretched and new
Striding for goals
New and so bold
Your punch bag no longer
Deaf too your spew
I am my hero
Bold, loving and true
From this day forward
I promise to be myself and my spirit
And lay waste to thee

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Mist Shrouds the strong
The sinuses strain
Preasures plunge us deeper
Hovering tenuously over a prosopis
Tall and strong in one hand
Feeble and weak on the other
Heart of oxen’s many
Eyes of a keen eagles glare
Backs stronger than any steel
Faith unwavering
Love to envelope the universe
scathed and scalded
We wander oblivious
The trueness of self drives us
Inspiring others too follow
We the individuals grow strong and true
Leaders one and all