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Pride of a Nation
Born free and astute
Spoiled by legalities
Politics and indemnities
Brought together
On this fate filled day
September the 11th
Etched deep on the brain
Terror at its highest
Needless attack
Destruction of the towers
Shook to the floor
Death of so many
Needless Destruction and loss
Let’s rise like a phoenix
Praise strength and fortitude
Never forgotten always in thought
They live with us forever
As do the scenes of that day
Go peaceful rest in glow of your light
Our loved ones and friends
For time ever more
We visit ground zero
With pain in our heart
Leave with a smile and hope ever more
Lessons  were learned
Determination was stoked
New strength to the world
Under tyrants tirades

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Isn’t the human race weird ?

The most inteligent and advanced animals on the planet

But still to this day we havent managed to irradicate Bullying,Bigotry,racial hate,Discrimination and physical attacks on the weak and infirm

Over 40 years of Bullying and Daiscriminatory violence I have suffered,Thankfully i am of strong nature aswell as Polite,Intelligent and sharp.

I suppose i am the Cat above i do not see weakness or differance but the Power i hold and confidance i hopefully Project . 

Today i was asked: How i managed it ?

Over many years i have inhanced my internal censors to convert feelings into whatever is needed become self aware and proud of my acheivements.

It all started with what now seems simple ( I am who i am and I accept Me wholey) I found out all i could about my conditions and any limitations I may have because of this.

Developement of self sufficient strategies to cope with whatever came my way,

1) Use of humour

2) Educated self awareness

3) Self Confidance

4) Ability to make fun of Self

5) Correct strong Attitude

6) Preperation to Learn and Adapt

7) Acceptance off Failure

1+4 : A sharp if not slightly warped sence of humour is Imperative too survival as it can aide in the retorts and come backs to most if not all verbal attacks. Aswell as allowing the disarming of situations by making fun of your own failings (It may sound daft but it does help trust me). You have to be senceible though and not over do it as that can sometimes escilate things too quickly.

2) Building up a vast accurate Knowledge base concerning your dissability for example means that the above is then armoured with the correct ammo, Allowing informed tiraids of retorical and bamboozling attacks on any Nianderthol that cares to try attacking in the first place.

3) This is bourne from acheiving goals and managing to adapt self to every situatioion the above helps greatly in boosting and stabalising Confidance. Over time irradicating to the back of your mind the dipressive and dark thoughts. Then you have the tools to self help yourself out of any dark situation and the pride and confidance to handle it .

5,6,7) These are all by products and additions off all above 7+6 go hand in hand and assist in the growth management of your defencive network, 5) is the product acheived at the end of every stage and this too continually utilises 7+6 in its developement.

Over time these all become second nature to the point I know personally that i dont notice the work involved and havent for a long time.

My one failing in many’s eyes is i put myself down too much and at times dont seem as proud and as confidant as i should. Especially when it comes to my looks and how i perceive others perceptions of them. And you know what they are probibly correct in some part but I have grate pride in my entirety and know that i can do what i set my mind too, if others dont like the way i look,Physically or Authstetically then well tough on them,

And if that is my main fault left after all i have been through then Personally i dont think thats all that bad..

You have a wonderful acheivement already too celebrate !!!! You are alive and are here

So this is not easy I know and i do not expect you too head off change everything you are doing for the above but modify and learn how to adapt to your situation properly, As it will and does make life easier on you and harder on the attacker. Defy the neggative promotion of possitive and acceptance of what and who cant be changed.

Trust me you are an amazingly awesome being and the conditions ect that you suffer and cope with that others dont understand and fear are what make us all individually special and superior in everything we do.

Pat yourself on the back reward your dailly survival and remember any hardship bourne makes you resiliant and stronger day by day.

The Nianderthol Brigade are fearful of change unwilling to learn or change and are born of social discrepancies that are 100 of generations in the making in which has formed them into hibitual habits subconcious and detrimental to civilities reign.

  ( A follow up too Proud to be who I am)

        ( The Scots Guards on Parade)

I know how hard it is to be bullied and be made fun of all to well. Personally it made school hard as hell,from Primary (junior) school to University. Having everyone including your peer group on your back day in day out. Kids on your street,block or estate harang your every movement.
  Did I hide in a corner or skulk in shadows !! . No I did not, I done the hardest thing I could have choosen too do. I stood upto the bullies and sooth sayers. Not by violance at first but by using my wit,inteligance and speed of thought. Turning round or manipulating there own words or position, A verbal Karate,Ikido or judo if you like.
  This is by no means easy although once you start you dont realise at the time how hard it is. As I am only seeing know how strong I must have been to attempt this.
  It is not cheek,stupid remarks or idiotic behaviour that you use, it is how ever jokes(about youself) aswell as them,word games,inteligance about the situation and grit and determination.
   Disarming or even nutralising there point of view making others laugh and without realising changing perspectives of you ( who you are, why you are,how you feel and what you will not stand for). There are no classes in this unfortunatly or everyone would be doing it.
  And not all the tormentors or torment will stop , but it will put you in a far better mental,social and interpersonal place. That one day you could be writing this or speaking to others on any subject?

Through my operations I missed a lot of school,but with hard work and help I caught up and passed my exams rising me above these people scared of the unknown(me). I first joined the Army as a Junior Leader (the picture top of page) thats where that chaprter began.
  All these people saying because of my face and that I was a freak and hey you guys (from the Goonies). To name but a few where are they what have they done !!!!.
  A lot I know personally know have made there peice and we have buried hatchets. A lot didnt do well at school,have been in and out of jail(correctional facilities),taken drugs ect. They marvel at my acheivements and wonder why and how !!.
  They have lived with regret,anger and self pitty around there actions. And I forgave them and thanked them for what they had done. With a smile a hug and even a pint or three.

There are those hard lined bigots out there that you can not change or get through too. That is not your fault it is down to them wholely and fully.

Forgive yourself before others and follow your path. Take those friends and believers with you.Leave doubters,haters and spoilers to languish in there own pitty.